| This is probably what I should post about... |
[Oct. 7th, 2005|07:40 pm] |
Well, I haven't updated since April and i could talk about my life and what not. However, I decided to update and say:
The Boston Red Sox just got swept out of the playoffs! Thank God!
I used to be ok with them, but they had gotten WAY too full of themselves and so has the media these last 2 years. Everything was about how great they were and how they would play the Yankees AGAIN in the ALCS. Well, the better team just won 3 straight. I don't hate the Red Sox by any means, just glad to not have to listen to the tripe spouted by ESPN and the national sports media anymore. Now if St. Louis can win 8 more, I'll be happy beyond belief.
Oh...and nuzzles to Melinda.
HOLL......oh wait, that's right, I haven't lost the faith.
I'm striking out on my own...................................................................................................
..........nomad style. |
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| You're no daisy... |
[Apr. 6th, 2005|09:49 pm] |
So a quick update here I think is in order. Haven't really updated since I moved down here to Gainesville and started my new job. I pretty much have the hang of my job, by damn damn damn do I stay busy. I continually have about 10-15 things on my plate that need to be done. I consider myself a good multi-tasker, but this job is testing it. I haven't really talked to any of the gang for a while, and that makes me sad. Also, for anyone who cares to know, a huge fuck off storm fried my wireless router so now I am sans Xbox live for a while.
I will be moving in July to another place in town that is cheaper then what I have now. I currently pay $680 per month to live by myself when I could be paying $450-$550. On a bright note I got a new uber credit card with 0% interest and transferred the balance from my high interest card, so that is super cool.
I have to meet this month with three vendors that I deal with. They are coming down here to meet and talk about our business, so that should be interesting. One guy is from the accessory company Pelican and he is cool over the phone, so hopefully that will go smoothly.
Matt, I'm very sorry to hear about your situation, that sucks. I don't really know what to tell you except to just stay strong and keep on going. I can tell you that you are a good manager and a hell of a person, for what it's worth.
Gen, I will be getting down to see you shortly, I promise. I'm glad to know that your store is doing well, make sure you keep it up. I'll know if you don't girl, I look at sales numbers everyday.
For the record if I haven't mentioned it to you, I am going out with a girl (good thing huh?) Her name is Melinda and she is quite cool. I have not been with anybody for a long time, so this coupled with moving has made my life very different from what it was in Valdosta. I am happy with my current situation, still just trying to budget my time for everything.
So that's it for now I guess. I'll try harder to update more from here on out. I'll also try to call everyone more to talk, but hey peoples, that door swings both ways (Adam, I will call you back). |
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| The End Is The Beginning Is The End |
[Feb. 1st, 2005|11:53 pm] |
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| | Nothing, I typed this in complete silence... | ] |
So I'm in Gainesville now, have started work, and am getting accustomed to my new digs. I like my place a lot, 2 floors, big rooms, quiet. My neighbor has an old POS parked right in front of my door and it never moves, I might ask management to have it moved, but knowing me, I'll just ignore it. Work is good, certainly is a lot of shit on my plate right now though. I have to learn from scratch a ton of stuff to order from the suppliers, restock the stores, do research, and so on. However, I am learning it and will continue to do so, hopefully ahead of the preset schedule. I want to show the company that I am the right person for the job.
John and Daryn came down tonight to visit and it was great. We ate out, went to Best Buy, and watched another episode of Band of Brothers. So now we got 7 down, 3 to go. Really, BOB is one of my favorite things ever, it's just so damn good. John and Daryn also delivered bill money, so I have to take care of those in the coming days. I also still have to finish setting up my apartment, or my computer room to be specific.
Well, tis late, and my bed calls out to Sauron....NO....it calls out to me, for sleep. Getting up at 6:30-7 every morning is tough business, especially for someone who went on such a screwed up schedule for so long. It's weird, I haven't dreamed so much as of late, but I don't just sleep either. I seem to be vaguely aware of things as I sleep, but not enough to wake up. It's weirding me out. I wish I would just dream again of flying, through the first person, with wings and a mace (I think) and battling what looked to be the giant evil turtle (Rahzar?) from Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles 2...what a cool dream. |
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| A summation of my times in Valdosta |
[Jan. 26th, 2005|10:20 pm] |
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| |  somber | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Sigur Rós-Staralfur | ] |
My first thoughts of Valdosta and moving here revolved around being able to drive a car (since I was turning 16 at the time). Back then, I only thought of this town as another stopping point on what was the continuation of my moving around with my parents. Oh what a difference almost seven years can make. Now here, at the end of my long (at least for me) stay in Valdosta, so many things run through my head, foremost being the deep welling of sadness in me to be leaving the best friends that I have ever had. It is enough to make me tear up at the thought of leaving all of these people behind: Daryn, John, Adam, Genevieve, Travis, Shannon, Ben, James (even though he left too), J.G., Jeff, Kyle, Brett, Ben, Rachael, and others whose names may not be listed here, but have a permanent home in my mind and heart. My God, I graduated high school here, started AND finished a prolonged bachelor degree here, had some of the best times allowed to anyone ever with those listed above and others. I tend to be quite stoic about stuff like moving, taking the position of "oh well, moving on to the next place". That probably comes from moving around so much as a child. Well, fuck that, I'm as sad right now as I've ever been. I always knew that I would move and leave my friends, but now that its come to that, I don't know what to do.
I'll always be able to have lunch with Daryn and John and Adam, go shopping with Genevieve, and do all the other things around town that seem inconsequential. But no, that's all ending, and with a suddenness that seems to have magnified the effect too.
I am very excited about my new job, and I really think I'll do well at it and enjoy it, and really, what more can you want from a job? I'll make new friends in Gainesville, I'll go places and hang out with people, and I'm sure I'll be happy. But, nothing will ever replace the times of the friends I made while living in Valdosta. And I will still have livejournal and myspace and such. Life is strange in how it operates. I certainly am leaving this town a different person. Now that might be due to aging, but I'd like to think that it has more to do, or is mostly due, to my friends. I haven't even touched on my nearly three year relationship with Serena, but that's not really sad to me anymore, but it is something that I'll always have.
All I can hope is that I have the fortune to meet people of similar character and quality as the friends I move away from. I hope that I like my new job, I hope that I keep in contact and continue these great friendships, I hope to make new friendships, I hope all my friends prosper and are happy and find what it is they are looking for in life, I hope...
This truly is the end of all things. |
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| The end of all things... |
[Jan. 21st, 2005|06:09 pm] |
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Well, I found out today that I got the job I've been wanting in Gainesville, Fl and will be moving in under 2 weeks. I am both very happy about it and sad to be leaving my friends. However, it's not very far away and it is an amazing opportunity for me. I am still in partial shock, I really was in doubt as to whether or not I would get this job. I'll update in the next few days, hopefully doing something on livejournal that I envisioned if I got this job. Once I move, things like livejournal and myspace will help to keep me connected with my great friends. Anyways, thought I'd let everyone know, cheers. |
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| Everything OK? |
[Dec. 22nd, 2004|10:36 pm] |
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| |  anxious | ] |
I'm not going to write much, but I wanted to put words down to remember in the future exactly how I feel right now. I feel a great anxiety in me, but I don't know what for. A lot is going on right now, and I have a worrisome nature anyways, so my head is in overload. All of this will culminate with working all day Christmas Eve and then driving to Jacksonville for Christmas, and then driving back. I'm looking forward to spending Christmas with the family. Anyways, all of this really is just me writing to write, but damn do I feel.....weird. Too bad I'm too private a person to write down everything in my head. There are just some things I don't want to discuss, even if I feel like they should be discussed sometimes. |
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| Everything's Eventual |
[Dec. 14th, 2004|12:06 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | melancholy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Sarah Chang on musicmatch | ] |
I've meant to update before now, but just haven't gotten around to it. So yeah, Daryn and I graduated college on Saturday, Dec. 11, 2004. Twas indeed an experience, I don't think that it's quite hit me yet. However, the already full-time work has hit me with a 7 am uppercut this morning. It was ok though, the day flew by as I learned all of the various paperwork that needs to be done in the store. Still, I've had a melancholy attitude about myself all day long, the kind of mood where you feel really blah about stuff. Hopefully a good nights sleep will help with that.
Thanks to everyone who wished me well with graduation, it is greatly appreciated.
So Christmas is in a couple of weeks already, how quickly is time moving now eh? Once the new year hits things will happen quite fast for me I think.
Got my grades today, and not only did I pass, I made the Dean's List for the first time in forever. It felt really good to tell my parents that I made good grades, even if I did raise my GPA up to a 3.01 in my last semester, too late to have the HOPE grant.
For some reason I cannot seem to be able to keep my room clean, and it is devastating my soul. Living in a perpetual state of clutter makes my head hurt.
Things to do with friends in the very near future:
Go to Mori's
Play Trivial Pursuit
Ummmmm...I had more, but "he left us, he left us...but that's not what I'm gonna do"....who knows that one huh?
Well, I'm going to go stick some fluffy puffs under my pillow for sleepy time and then go to sleep. My chest feels tight, is that bad? |
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| Life hates me |
[Nov. 27th, 2004|01:00 am] |
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So after writing my piece on Halo 2 overload....I go and try to play tonight. Now mind you I haven't played since Tuesday night, so I figured I'd jump on tonight for a bit with friends. But oh no, my Xbox hath taken it personally and will not allow me to get on. It says some bullshit like "Xbox Live is not responding" but then I go to the troubleshooter and it says connected to Xbox Live. It makes no sense, but there you have it. Things happen in the opposite way in which I want at any particular time. Ok, let's see...I want to continue living.....right.....now.......Damn.
Well, fuck it all, Ima just go to bed and deal with it tomorrow or whenever. I always seem to have to be dealing with something. I also have to deal with Microsoft telling me that they won't even let me sit on hold they are so busy, well fuck that. You see, technology sucks because it gets so intertwined into your life that you need it and then it goes out just like that and ruins you. My life infrastructure has collapsed into itself this evening.
Not really, I'm just annoyed with the whole thing and felt the need to vent on here. I did help Vieve out today by jumping her car off at work, so bonus useful man points to me. I don't know much, but I do know a few things (and "but I know I love you"...dumb song reference) about cars. Well, a full day of work awaits, so I'm off. |
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| Too much of a good thing CAN be bad |
[Nov. 24th, 2004|12:48 am] |
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| | worn out | ] |
| [ | music |
| | classical | ] |
That's it...tonight I hit a wall playing Halo 2. I've been playing that game nonstop for days now and tonight I finally just had enough. It bothers me that a video game can affect me so, but I guess anything can given enough exposure. It's not losing that has me like this, although that does play a role. No, it's that Halo 2 has become my entire life, just play and go to work when I have to. It is a fun game, and I will continue to play, but I will ration my playing time a bit more. I think that I'd like nothing more right now than to curl up in a comfy chair and read a good book with cold weather outside. Of course by right now I mean in the next few days (or weeks knowing me). Thanksgiving is Thursday and I'm excited about it. The food will be good, the family interaction will be better. I think I'm most excited about talking with my dad and grandfather and uncle in the back yard as we fry our turkey. Fried turkey is quite possible the best way to prepare a turkey, so good.
So I want to go and hang out with my family but I don't want to move there when I get out of college next month. What exactly does that mean?
God do I want to get my career life started. However, I also am dreading moving away from all my friends, but that's how things are. I can and WILL keep in touch with them all via e-mail and this journal and such, which will help.
I've got to watch it, I've been having very bad mood swings lately. I get crappy knot feeling in my stomach and it bothers me. Sometimes, like the week where I had to get a tetanus shot and my ears got infected and my eye got swollen shut, I feel like a hopeless human fucking being.
I tried to change my hair into something new and different, but it ended up just going back to how it was years ago, big surprise huh? Nothing I do to my hair ever works out like I want it to. It may be ok, but it has NEVER been what I thought it would be.
At least I'm getting my degree in a couple of weeks, and at least I've got my books...and the Twilight Zone. |
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| FUCKED UP |
[Nov. 1st, 2004|11:19 pm] |
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| | motherfuck it all | ] |
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| | The Eagles-Take It Easy | ] |
Ok really my head fucking hurts from lots of things. Between finishing school, looking for a job, my moms health, this election of two people that I have problems with, the realization that my time with my best friends ever is running out, that times will never be the same ever again in my life, the oncoming responsibility that comes with having an actual life and job, ok really run on sentence.
My mom has to have surgery in a couple of weeks to remove a benign tumor. I'm going down there Wednesday to see her and my dad and sister. I have not seen them in like two months and there is always the possibility, although very remote, that surgery could not go well, but I don't want to think about that.
My head is about to burst from things. Carl Blencke is a nice man, but his class has caused me far too much stress for an easy elective on my way to graduation.
On the good side of things, Travis and I rocked out at Toys R' Us today. A 70% sale on video games is a great way to score some easy games to trade 2for1 at Rhino. Good times man, good times.
Also, the Halloween party totally rocked ass. A lot of people complemented me on my child molester costume, which consisted of tight grey polyester slacks, a tight button down, tie, and windbreaker. I really did look like someone who would do unclean things to a child. This choice was made because Daryn and I realized that the costume options at Goodwill were limited, so I went with what was available.
I'm losing weight, which is good. I'm at like 225 or around there. This is down from my all time high of about 280 lbs about 2 or so years ago. I'd like to get to around 200 or so and then I'd be happy. If I can get that and get these fucking braces off my teeth I'll be doing good. Fucking braces.
Speaking of weight loss, I'm going to go run right now at 11:30 at night. I have far too much energy and frustration pent up to just sit here and do homework right now. Homework can continue later tonight and tomorrow, I will do all my work and do it very well, I always do, even if it takes me till the 11th hour (Daryn knows what I'm talking about).
Also, I am not an ignorant or clueless man. Oh well, that's just how things are I guess, I'll deal. My favorite Eagles song just came on, and I think I'll do just that, take it easy. That and go run to get this frustration out. |
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| Fear and Douches in Las Vegas |
[Oct. 19th, 2004|12:55 pm] |
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| |  drained | ] |
| [ | music |
| | coming from the living room | ] |
My My God God
So yeah, Vegas was an eye opening trip to just how crazy and weird people can actually be. Here are some highlights I had:
Ignoring Mexicans handing out hooker papers every TEN FEET for the length of the strip as we walked to different casinos.
Seeing people absolutely pour money into said casinos. Good lord, it was crazy. People put hundreds into video blackjack and lost it in like two hands. People "let it ride" on craps and lost thousands just like that. I devastated myself pretty well, losing around $200, mostly on video blackjack. Gambling is indeed VERY fucking addicting, so I'm glad that I wasn't there too long.
Going to the Hoover Dam, and making way too many damn jokes, like "That's a big damn shaft" and such. We also made fun of every person there, because every person there was ho bad. I also took about 4-5 pictures of this one guy at different times on the tour because he looked at me once. There was also this really hot girl with her douche boyfriend in the parking lot. The four of us (Creed, Jason, Chad, and myself) stared at her for a while as her man looked at us. In the car, I stated that I should have asked him if "I could widen her diameter with my penis." That may not seem so funny written here, but damn was it hilarious there.
Explanation of douche-Once we got into Las Vegas we started seeing all these guys trying WAY too hard to impress everybody or look cool or something. We dubbed them douches early on, and continued using the term until we got back into Jacksonville.
Saturday night we all got nice and hammered in the casino. They had dollar beer and margaritas everywhere, easy to get drunk for cheap on that. Also, if you are gambling anywhere in a casino, a cocktail waitress will come up and take your order for free for any kind of drink you want. Funny in retrospect how a drunken me won $100 at blackjack and then proceeded to piss it away on subsequent blackjack games. Anyway, at nine we had girls come to our hotel room to dance for us. This was a bachelor party trip after all. We ordered a bottle of Jack up to the room and then the girls came...
Mandy and Francesca got there around nine and were dressed exactly like I thought they'd be, slutty. They proceeded to charge us for the arrival fee (which was a lot) and then asked for tips up front. They were going to dance and do each other, and we were told would do more for $1000. Well, that's a fucking lot of money, so we told them that we wanted some stripping and dancing and such, not to just get fucked like they were implying. So they left and called two more girls from their agency (and fuck agencies by the way) to come up. We thought that they were shitting us and we called another agency to get two girls up to the room. Bad idea. Both sets of girls showed up within one freakin minute of each other. So then we had to figure out what to do with 2 of the girls. We ended up sending the two that we called ourselves (who looked worse) packing with a cancellation fee and then got started. The two girls came out of the bathroom wearing only g-strings and started dancing to some music. By this time, I was quite drunk because I had been nervous at the girl mix-up and had done a lot of shots of Jack. So the girls took turns giving each of us lap dances for a while. At one point, we needed more money of course, and me being the only guy with his shirt on (because when asked by the girl if I wanted her to take it off, I said no) went down to the casino for some bank. Once I returned, one of the girls danced all over me on the bed while stating facts about me that I didn't tell her. It turns out in the nanosecond I was gone a number of things had been stated. So the dancing continued for a while and after I drunkenly ate a prepared for me omelette. While the dude made it for me right at the buffet bar, I cheered him on and told him how great he was.
There is more to the trip, including a trip to the Star Trek area of the Hilton where I geeked out. I'll probably write about it soon, but now I got class and work to go to. Sorry if the above is long, but I thought it interesting and I wanted the trip documented for future reference. |
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| Pretty shitty man... |
[Oct. 7th, 2004|02:01 am] |
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| |  uneasy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | musicmatch stuff | ] |
So yeah, late Wednesday/early Thursday here...I've become a nothing...a void of baseball watching and school going to.
Tonight was a lonesome night methinks as I really did not interact with anyone. I tried to go out and talk with Daryn some, but that kind of went nowhere. I filmed some today for Devastator with John, Matt, and Gabby. That was cool until I burnt the shit out of my hand with a freaking lighting rig umbrella thingy. Fuck that shit. Also, Walt, of the mass media department, seems to be a dick of a man to everyone around him. I don't know him at all and have no reason to, but fuck him all the same. I certainly am a stranger in a strange land when I enter into the Fine Arts building. Odd birds are they, with their no shoes, weird artwork, and things going on (cause that's weird, right?). I just get the feeling that everyone there thinks so highly of themselves or something. Whatever it is, I don't like it, but that's just me.
Augh to my Wednesday night class with Mr. Blencke, it is a gigantic waste of time. The man takes the course FAR too seriously and assigns crazy amounts of busy work. I find myself not doing most of it, but impressing him in class with my role playing. Maybe that combined with decent test scores can net me a B. My other classes are going great so far. In the home stretch here with school, and god am I tired of it. I love learning and understanding material and all, but I need a fucking few years before continuing on.
So my Vegas trip with Creed and friends is coming up in just over a week. Gonna be good I think. It's been forever AND a day since I went on a vacation that was not to Disney. It should be good times to hang with Creed again....that and blow money in sin city.
My bottom lip seems to be in a constant state of being chapped since I got braces. Yes, I got braces, and they suck. I can't take much more fun of talking to someone I know who, after a few minutes, says "oh...when did you get braces?" Oh well, they'll be off before too long (10 to 12 months) and I needed them to halt the forward charge of my upper teeth. It will suck not being able to smile at my college graduation. However, I would rather look back and see a non-teeth smile then a braces full smile and have to confirm to someone in my future that I did indeed have braces in 2004.
Playing katamari damacy is great, but man does it make my eyes hurt. Every time I play my eyes water up something fierce. Must be due to the games awesomeness or something.
I am the very definition of moody right now. To counteract this I do nothing, which can either help or itself do nothing. I know people, my roommates in particular, think me an easily annoyed person who gets himself in pissy moods. I think that I have a tendency to become disattched from everyone around me and kind of sink into myself. Maybe that tendency comes from moving so much as a kid. That and me being fucking weird. Oh well, I am who I am and I love my friends dearly. Man, "Africa" by Toto is the best fucking song ever written. I could listen to it all day and smile and pump my fists to the chorus. Toto, I salute you.
So yeah, tomorrow I think I will venture out and buy me the new Cake cd along with other various things that strike my fancy. |
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| Dusting Helps To Clean The Soul |
[Jul. 6th, 2004|02:52 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Cold Mountain soundtrack | ] |
After thinking about doing this for a couple weeks, here it is. Just over a year ago was the last time I updated this journal, so long ago that logging in to livejournal just now was a completely different experience. But that's neither here nor there, is it?
So I'm going through what I would call a funk, have been for the last few weeks. Some days I feel great, some I just feel ok, and others I feel bad. To describe it more is to say that I feel a great emptiness in me, for what reason I don't know. I think that there is some part of me that pines greatly for a relationship. Someone to hold and be with I think would ease a part of my mind. However, I also realize that I, and everybody for that matter, needs someone who is right for them. In the past, I was really only looking for somebody, anybody, to be with. I met a girl whom I liked last year, but things did not work out. We continue to be friends, but for a very short while I thought things might be more. Oh well, so goes it.
The Cold Mountain soundtrack is really good, Alison Krauss in particular. She has a pretty voice to me. And banjo playing warms my heart every time.
I devastated an anthill in the backyard today, fucking bastards.
I sure will be graduated in six months. After having attended school for the last nineteen years in a row, it will come to an end before Christmas. I very well may go back for my masters at some point, but that would be a ways down I think. The prospect of finding a real job and starting my path in the world is frightening and exciting. It will hurt to leave behind all my friends whom I love, but such is life. Contact will still be kept forever I hope, but I will go where I can and do what I must. My mother has been saying for well over a year now that I should move down to Jacksonville with them. I love my family dearly, but I do not think that I would want to live in the same city as them. I have depended on them for much over the years. I think that I would like to live somewhere that I could establish myself and get by on my own means.
Wal-Mart certainly had Once Upon A Time In The West for $10, and I certainly bought it and the Cold Mountain soundtrack even though I shouldn't have. |
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| "That's All I Wanted..A Little Sunshine, Sympathy" |
[Jun. 28th, 2003|12:18 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Zwan-Lyric | ] |
Yeah, tonight sucks pretty bad. My day consisted of waking up, eating lunch, going to work, coming home, eating dinner, and now this. I could not find anybody I know to hang out or do something with. This coming on a night when I REALLY was in the mood to be social and do something, anything, with a friend or two. Adding to the sad parade is the fact that I'm not going to Tallahassee with Daryn tomorrow as he is there now with Shelby. I understand why Daryn doesn't want to go back tomorrow and that's cool, but still, now I have a whole day of nothing lined up on my freakin day off and then back to the work all day everyday routine of late.
I also find myself wishing I was in some kind of relationship right now. I've been lonely as of late, tonight not helping that any, and just wish I had a person to be with and do things together. Well, that ain't a happening any time soon, no sir. Low self esteem when it comes to girls pretty much limits me in the dating department. I am so fucking afraid of being shot down that I find it better to go without asking a girl out then to take a chance and let things happen. It's always, "I don't have anything in common with her" or "She wouldn't want to date me" or some such shit. Fuck that man, that's shitty of me. Sadly, I don't know how that would change in the forseeable future.
By the way, yeah, I'm venting right now. I've been meaning to for the last few days.
I really want to move in with John and Daryn, but damn if things as of late haven't scared me a little. John has had every utility cut off in the past couple months, and Daryn might not have enough money to stay afloat after moving out. God knows I want nothing more than to live with them in a nice two story apartment, but I will not let any of us get bogged down backpaying shit and such. I really do feel everything will be ok once all is said and done, just gotta keep on the bills and pay them on time.
Things have been good with J.G. lately. We talk a lot more and hang out some, good times to be sure. Moving out will probably help things even more, as we'll have to meet up to hang out, not just see each other at home.
The other night at work Bethany came in and I din't say anything thinking that was the way it would be. Then when she left, she said hey to me and it made me feel really bad that I hadn't said anything to her before. I was not trying to ignore her, I just figured we both wouldn't say anything. And the reason I thought that was not too long before that night, she was over at the house when I got home from work and it seemed ackward as hell between us. On the slim chance that she reads this, I just wanted to say sorry and I really hope that in your mind you don't think I played you before or some such thing. Things got weird last year between us and that saddened me because I wanted us to be something I guess we couldn't be.
While I'm strolling down this path, I wonder what Serena (my ex of three years dated) is up to. Haven't heard from her in a long time.
So yeah, I work at Rhino video games and it's good. Good pay, good benefits, good place me a game junkie like me to work.
Proving my earlier point about girls and self esteem and me, two girls at work today bought some stuff and I checked them out (at the register, not looked them up and down). They very well may have been ever so slightly hitting on me, but fuck if I shot that down in a nanosecond in my head. It's like a hookup from somebody is the only way I'll go on a date, but those usually don't work and god knows internet dating is an untouchable thing, I'd know.
Well, Adam just called. Going to go hang out with him and James and Dottie(did I spell her name right) for a little while. Actually need to get to know Dottie, seeing as I've only ever met her once before.
To close out, I guess I'll add that I'm not too sad and I'm certainly not super lonely and depressed. I just have problems with some parts of my life, but I guess that is in fact life. I love my family, my friends, and a bunch of other things, so I don't want anybody to think that I'm a crazy depressed loon thats been repressed or anything, far from it. This has felt good, to get all of this down on paper so to speak. |
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| I Feel A Bit Hawkish Today... |
[May. 8th, 2003|02:15 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  productive | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Wilco-Kamera | ] |
So yeah, here I am again on my own, going down the only road I've ever known, like a drifter I was born to walk alone.
After months of being too lazy to get on here and express myself, here I go.
So this semester of school has been ok, not great, but ok. I finally feel like I'm getting into the meat of my major if you will, and it feels good. In addition being able to work with Daryn is great, and the easy job doesn't hurt either. Spring break was truly a great time with friends, no cares in the world the entire time.
Got a kidney stone on my fucking birthday weekend while I was down to see my parents and that sucked mightily. As I've told all my friends, it was the worst pain of my entire life up to this point. I also hope that it will always be the worst pain of my life, because I shant want to experience anything worse then it EVER. Just terrible pain in my stomach that resonated down into my balls and would not go away, bad stuff.
Playing Halo and hanging out with friends is great fun. I've gotten to know Ben, Genevieve, James, Dave and his brother James (different James there), Carson, and Craig through these halo games and they're a cool bunch of people, let me tell you. Fun times to be had playing until the wee hours with loads of other people.
Well, that was good for me I think. Need to do it again, sometime soon, like NOT in six months. Hope so. |
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| A Travis Song Not Sung By Travis??? What A Travesty |
[Dec. 2nd, 2002|09:13 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  cold | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Nelly Furtado-Turn Out The Lights | ] |
I sit here at my computer on a cold night in Valdosta Georgia and I think about stuff. School's almost over, concert coming up, LOTR movie coming up, and Christmas is just around the corner. This year has both flown by and absolutely crawled along at the same time to me. That's weird and makes me think how strange life can be. Anyways, winter is good, which I guess was my original point.
I suddenly had this Nelly Furtado itch I had to stracth today by way of Kazaa, a rather odd taste I think. Along with her I also got some music from Hootie AND the Blowfish and Live (This guy knows what I'm talking about...points to John).
Well, I ordered and paid for John and myself's tickets to go see DMB on the 11th. I really think it's going to be a good time, riding up to Atlanta with my best friends enjoying the times, which shall be good and plentiful. Concerts are great things and should be gone to by people for the experience, for the magic, and for the memories.
Thank god school is approaching it's end for a while, tis been a long semester, but then I guess they all are. No one ever comments on how short a semester was really. Finals shouldn't be too hard, just as long as a allocate enough study time and don't try to cram in 30 minutes, which I have been known to do, more than once, by a lot.
J.G. seems to be really tired today and has been for the past few days. I hope everything is ok there. He did give blood today, a notorious cause of tiredness, so hopefully some sleep and rest will cure his ills.
Heroclix is good, and so are comics by the way.
I talked to Bethany last night on AIM. It was good to hear from her again and let her know that I was sorry for not doing so earlier. It looks like I'm going to go to her school drama performance in about a week, which should be enjoyable.
I shaved my chin and holy shit was it weird.
Fuck a ranchoweb for not letting me access their site because "the traffic is too busy". Hold on, I'm going to try again right now...
...YEAH!!! Go ranchoweb, what a great website!!!
If anyone is viewing this from their friends page, come check out my new background, courtesy of seanbaby.com. If you have never been there, do yourself a favor and go, it's fucking funny stuff.
I guess tis time to go, so I leave you with a question (what a great way to encourage comments huh?)
What European country decriminalized possession of small amounts of heroin, in 2001?
I'll issue the answer next update and congratulate anyone who answers right. |
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| Holy shit, I think I strained something... |
[Nov. 21st, 2002|12:53 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  chipper | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Hall & Oates-Outta Touch | ] |
...You still there?
Here's the short of it over the last 3 months:
-Moved into that house previously mentioned with J.G.
-Still have no job and am happy if not a bit more lazy
-Stopped walking with Shelby nightly but soon to restart
-Bombed the fuck out of a Statistics test (We're talking 24 out of 80 here, not so good)
-Grew thick amish boy sidechops
-Got into a game called Heroclix
-Getting happy about cold weather
Yep, just got the itch to get on here tonight and write. I'm in the writing mood lately though, as my book idea has really picked up some steam and is now as close as I've ever been to committing to something like that. This push was definitely helped by the fact that my sister, who is a great writer herself, said she liked my idea. Right now I'm still plotting out how to write the first bit, but I'm hoping to get into some actual progression during the winter break of school. Ideas are just buzzing around in my head and it's a bit hard to pick out which ones I want to use. That though is never a bad thing, always better to have too much then too little. Maybe I'll post some of what I've done in a couple months here and ask for some feedback.
To go along with getting back into the swing around here I changed from red to blue (visit my actual journal to see, it's pretty). I also used Glass Joe from PunchOut! to personify my injury prone self, or at least it seemed funny to me. I just thought looking through my pictures 'Who would I be?' then Glass Joe came up and fit, so there ya go.
I've also decided to change something in my life, and that is to shave my goatee during winter break. While I'll be leaving the sideburns (just can't have no facial hair, i'd be too much face), the chin looks to get shaved for the first time in about 2 years. Ok really, that's a long fucking time to not shave a chin. Reasons for this are change and I want my goatee to grow in thicker like the rest of my face. I guess if it sucks, and there's a good chance it will, it'll just grow back in a couple weeks.
Also worth note is that on Tuesday next week I'm going to the doctor in Jacksonville to have the skin growths on my neck removed. They have been there for as long as I can remember, but my parents all of a sudden can't stand them and set up this doctor visit. No complaining from me though, I've always wanted the damn things gone, so I guess I get my wish in a week.
One more tidbit on my appearance is my hair, which is probably going to get grown out long, or at least tried. I now have a hat that fits my head if the hair's acting crazy, and why the fuck not grow it, you know? I will however continue to make trips to Kent's salon to trim and promote quicker hair growth. What, I grow my hair out and grow a full thick beard and become...hairy I guess, kind of like mountain folk (with no relation to Shelbok).
Well, it's felt good, hope you all feel the same. Leave me a line brimming with support and it will make me happy, and what would be better than that?
Later friends |
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| You Know the Feeling |
[Aug. 25th, 2002|02:52 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | sad | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Vieni sul mar | ] |
Just read John and Daryn's journal.
That sure is an interesting idea of a movie between John, Adam, and Matt. I do agree with John that if involved Matt would make it his own thing and downplay everyone elses role, that's just how he is.
I myself am still trying to get started on my book, which has actually had some progression in my head as far as basic story elements and the like goes. Hopefully I can get some ink to paper (or something with computer terms) done in the near future. Shouldn't be too hard, school seems kind of easy thus far, just basic go and pass.
Super Mario Sunshine comes out tomorrow (Monday)...gon be guuudd.
It seems that J.G. and I will be moving in the next month or so to a house that was his grandmothers. That should be a nice change of pace living with no one under or by us, sounds good to me.
Well, I'm in quite the funk right now. Late night depression gets me down sometimes, too much time to think about shit, and my mind drifting to the not good and sad shit side doesn't help matters any.
John was right, Signs is a really good movie.
Time to go now, bye. |
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| Some Rats are jumping off the sinking ship while others nail their feet to the deck... |
[Aug. 5th, 2002|03:27 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | Yep... | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Weezer-Island in the Sun | ] |
Fucking hell if actual exercise doesn't feel good to the body, who woulda thunk it?
What what I got a Super Nintendo the other day! Happiness to this man is 16 bit games. On a bittersweet note though, I beat the game Blackthorne in like 3 days. When I was young, I remember that game being a lot harder to me. So eeeeeeee to it already being beat, but yeah to the fact that I actually must be a pretty good gamer.
I love videogames, they make me happy to an unimaginable degree.
I hate Convergys, it's like hot coals in my eyes. I really shouldn't hate the job so much, but fucking a it bothers me. I left early tonight to get way from the head trauma (AWESOME) that is my job. But A-yeh to leaving on August 9th. Stop the presses, Jarrod is actually leaving the job that he said he was leaving 8 months ago. Well, here's to moving the gears of my life in a positive direction.
Besides leaving my job, I'm also walking nightly now with Shelby. This also took an ungodly amount of time for me to start, but now that the ball is rolling inertia will hopefully take over and I won't find some dumb ass reason to stop.
I feel bad for Sarah and her situation with her boyfriend. Like Daryn said in his comment, the guy sounds like a fucking loser. I'd have concurred on her journal as well, but you know, can't leave a comment...eeeeeeeee
Heartfelt entry there from Daryn about pretentious people. I agree that they suck, but they are around all the same. Nothing is worse than someone liking or disliking something ONLY because someone else thinks the same. Far too many folks now-a-day form their bases and opinions on others, who themselves formed theirs the same way. This trickle down of the way people like shit has caused stuff like music to suck. Raprock isn't as big as it is because it's so great, it's because everyone thinks that it's cool BECAUSE everyone else they know thinks it's cool. Fuck a liking shit because you think it's cool. Like shit because you like shit, no more no less. If your friend likes it too then cool, but let it be a real liking for what it is.
Started reading "The Dark Tower: The Gunslinger" by Stephen King last night. So far it's quite the interesting read just like I always thought it would be. Yes, like other things in my life, I've wanted to but never started reading this book until last night. I better watch it, pretty soon and I'll have nothing else on my personal to do list. Because that would be bad........
Random thoughts:
John is certainly the reading machine lately...good thing though...
Hide me from pizza flavored hamburgers.
I wish to the lord above that it would cool off in town sometime soon, like before December.
There should be more smut haiku being made...I guess.
Bills are spaced perfectly apart so that you never have any money and always have something due, fuck dat.
So yeah... |
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| I Always Thought I'd Get A Girlfriend Who Jacked Off My Dick With Her Feet... |
[Jul. 26th, 2002|02:11 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | listless | ] |
| [ | music |
| | FF7-Shinra's Theme | ] |
Well, as I already came up with an interesting title line from a comment I made to Daryn earlier, looks like this entry gon' be good. I mean, when one even mentions feet and dick in the same sentence then said sentence is headed for greatness.
On the subject of a certain Mr. Beasley, I did in fact decide to update tonight, yeah to all.
It looks like I'm finally going to free myself of the horror that is Convergys pretty soon. They're about an inch away from firing me for bullshit reasons and I've had my fill with that headache of a job. Once I leave, no more Backrom (spelled wrong, I have no fucking clue how to spell his name) asking me for rides home, no more only working at nights, no more sore throat from talking to assholes for hours. In fact, the only real downside to leaving is Shelby. What...Shelby leaves too and betters his own life!! Be good if he did! However, that's something for him to decide for himself. Regardless of what he does, I plan on remaining good friends with him and watching him get drunk, it's fun.
Maybe one day I'll get drunk before Jughead guzzles all my vodka, dirty bastard...RIGHT! Naw, it's cool man, no trouble at all. I do have this sneaking suspicion though that he poured some of that vodka down Jennifer's titties and licked it off...or he didn't. Probably he didn't...in fact he definitely didn't, but he wishes he could have I'm sure.
R.I.P. to the Feet-O-Luxus 2000, you twere one in a million little car. Tomorrow we look for John some new wheels to cruise in. Hopefully I'll next update about riding in John's new flying diamond tank, but I doubt it. Still, a car is a car and if it gets you around, all the better, you know?
LOTR in under a week!!! Adam and/or John are going to borrow it from Hollywood and what we watch it and cum in our pants! I know this man will at least...cum in my pants that is...but I won't eat it, sorry Sam.
Good lord I need to do laundry.
I mean REALLY need to do it...
For real...
Well, bed beckins now and paycheck beckins in the morning, so it's time for this cowboy to ride off into the sunset.
Sunset Riders was a great game by the way... |
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